Gradually I began to intellectually reject some of the delusionally influenced lines of thinking which had been characteristic of my orientation. This began, most recognizably, with the rejection of politically-oriented thinking as essentially a hopeless waste of intellectual effort.
Honestly, I’ve reached that point many a times. But the idiot that I am, I keep running around in circles, and reaching that point over and over again. It’s frustrating to be an idiot.